`let's get everything started again.

ohh well...
first day of school was kinda heavy.
all i could say is that...
this semester is not gona be easy.
modules are damm tough.
i just hope i could pull through the 17 weeks.
=((

and somehow i still prefer BM0710
cause they are a bunch of noisy people.
fun and laughters are always the word to describe BM0710.
well.
not that i dont like the new class.
just that there's no more germaine kl hl wy and char to be there.
AND I WAS SOO DAMM HAPPY TO SEE GERMAINE!
(cos she didnt turn up for the mini gathering!)
i have to learn to be independent.
and probably its the first day of school...
and everyone is kinda new and sort.
thus no one break the ice.

well well well...
i know rantings wont change anything.
i can adapt.
i am independent.
i am strong.
thus I know i can!

=))

*i miss you girls...
i miss you guys...
and...
i mis you...

`RUN PAPA RUN

yeah.
met up with wy and dale yesterday.
settled our lunch and off we went for movie.
yeah, RUN PAPA RUN.

the movie wasnt too bad.
just that the ending left me tonnes of question to be asked.
wahahhas.
and none could answer them =((
ohh well.
besides that lunch talk and movie.
i did enjoy my day.
however, it would be so much better if that IDIOT stop bullying me.
=))

alright.
2 more days to sch reopen.
its so OH MY GUANYINMA luh.
okay, no rantings wanxin.
alrighty.
back to my story book now! =))

JUNE is coming!
ohh thats really great =))

and sometimes its really hurts to be doubt.
especially when you did nothing of that sort.
wonderwall, i need you badly now.
would you mind hear all my rantings now?

*stay away!
i dont wanan fall.
i've a weak heart. argh!

`old and spoilt.

alright.
today's post was kinda random.

yeah that's Creative MuVo Mp3.
its my first Mp3 that daddy got it for me on my 15th or 16th birthday.
and yeah.
though twitsis has given me 2 ipod.
but i wont throw that MuVo away =))

hmm..
i think i'm behaving like a mad dog recently.
soo pardon me if i really go that mad yeah.
i'm still in the process of changing.
but just remember that i'm no longer that past wanxin anymore.
accept me for who i'm or leave.
and i have tried my best.
its up to you guys now =))

`Definitely, maybe?

spent my evening with my polyclique.
they're HL KL WY CHAR LESTER CHOONG.

well..
i wasnt late okays!
WY was the one who overslept.
we suppose to meet at 5.25pm.
and i'll be late and we set the time till 5.45pm.
and i reach on the DOT =)).
waited at yishun for an hour for my dear WY.
i didnt know i got so much patience either.
*shrugs

so we met the others at plazasing's KFC.
settle down and ate.
catch a movie then.
yeah, its DEFINITELY, MAYBE.
and we went in late all thanks to ?
wahahas.
the show was not too bad. =))
then home sweet home =))

it does really feel great meeting up with them.
lots of laughters =)).
and this friendship will never ends right?
and i love talking to wanyan.
cause her stories are damm interesting.
share more with me pls wanyan!
and pls dont overslept again and paint your nails when you know you are running late!
=x haaas!

this friendship will go on for me, i'm sure.
how about you? =))

ADVERTISEMENT TIME.

`Am i waiting for happy ending?

someone said.
it shouldnt be HAPPY ENDING.
cause it meant the happiness has ended.
people should say HAPPY STARTING.
haas..
sounds weird and irony huh?
okay, i knew it was random.

i'm tired.
day in day out.
rotting and slacking at home.
sch reopening in a weeks time.
so yeah...
been going to town as if they are located a stone away from home.
i hope it was, but yeah.

hmm..
after much consideration.
i dont think there's a need to announce regarding it.
if you found it...
CONGRATULATIONS and welcome to view the boring chubb thing.
if you cant find it....
ohhh, that's way TOO BAD then =)).
so, wish you lucks?
haas

many things had happened during this holiday.
and it doesnt stop the world from changing...
it doesnt stop the earth from rotating.
and time doesnt even stop for that.
and yeah..
they say people move on.
but somehow i'm reluctant to..
cause i'm afraid.
and i'm having a phobia for that.

nonetheless..
I'M STILL WAITING FOR JUNE! =))

*i've got to be stronger than this.
brave through it.

`i'm waiting =))

ohh well
i got a sudden urge to go KINOKUNIYA.
and i dont know why =((.
i wanted to find some really GREAT books.
that could let me learn something new seriously.
okay, i know this's kinda random.
wahaaas.

and....
i waiting for this coming JUNE!
oh great!
haaaas =))
14th of june, i'm waiting for you.
you'll bring me to some where far far away right?

and
though i know i'm late.
live well in the nether world.
buddha will do a good job in taking care of you both.
all the blessings.
=((

*one by one they pass by.
and the only thing i could said was "GOODBYE"
=))

`i can't stop smiling...

i can't stop smiling when the screen goes "PASSED"
OH MY GUANYINMA!!
I PASS MY BTT!
wahaas.

i got to thank buddha for hearing my prayers before i enter the room.
i was shivering all over and i dont know why.
my hands cant stop shaking.
my heart cant stop racing.
all i could do was to pray that buddha will be on my side today.
going to that place alone was seriouly pressurising.
i didnt know where to go.
what to do...
when could i get into the room.
and i didnt prepare well cause 2 days aint enough to study that whole book
(as i was lazy enough and i kinda regret not starting earlier).
but i was FREAKING HAPPY when i pass!
haas!
thanks buddha =))

okay. i'm off to sleep.
one hour of sleep last night aint enough too =((
tada.. =))

*the madness of people and strangers.

`i would stay away from things i dislike.

up till today..
i have closed an eye for things that spur the unhappiness within.
i dont wana talk about it actually.
but i couldnt hold it anymore.

i'm so disappointed in a couple of friends.
one who didnt acknowledge me when i took the initiative to greet her when we met randomly.
i thought i was petty and should forgive.
but i can't help it, this friend action kinda disgust me.
another one whose words are seriously nasty and hurting.
though i know this friend may have overlooked and doesnt really mean what he/she actually wrote.
and i shall treat it as i've nv seen any of such comment.
the last one which i'm damm pissed (okay, not that pissed)
maybe this friend here thinks nothing is damm wrong..
but i jut wana tell you, people that..
i dont like to be commanded provided you are my parents or boss.
i seriously believe that friends shouldn't command one another.
the way this friend speaks would only make me goes...
"ohh man, who the hell are you there comanding? and you think i would do as wat you say or rather command? dream on!"
this is not the first time this friend commanded people.
well.
i guess i felt much better writing it down and should start forgiving.
maybe its my bad too, i admit.
maybe i'm just too petty. (ohh well)

i may appear to be temper-less or so.
but there are somethings i cant really stand.
things like...
people commanding me or others (if you have no rights)..
i dont like ppl leaning against me for a long long time.(unless you aint feeling well)
lending my sweater/jacket/cardigan to others (that inculdes my own family members)
yeah, i know i'm werid.
but everyone is different.
i can respect and go in whatever ways you wants.
but you got to respect me in return.
get it people?

well, i know i'm aint that good.
hate me if you wan.
dislike me if you wan.
i know i'm unlikeable. so?

enough of unhappy things.
esplanade's library tml?
a good get away from home and distractions.
studying is just soo tiring.
and i may get to go oversea during JUNE!
(ohh myyy..SAY WOWW!)
i'm elated as i've longed to go somewhere far far away
staying 365 days in singapore will make me go bonkers sonner or later.
THANKS DADDY and MOMMY for saying 'yes' to the trip.
THANKS AHMAA for organising
loves <33
tada =))

`after so long...

yeah!
finally coffee bean again.
shopped today too.
and i'm damm broke now.
spent like almost hundred bucks today.
awww.
oh well..
i know i'm a BIG SPENDER =((

chocolate day turns out well =))
but too much chocolate a day is a nono man...
wahaas..

okay.
no more shopping.
and outing for the moment!
and i remembered i got so much to blog.
however, i've forgotten about it.
well..
pardon me for my stm.

and..
timetable kinda sucks.
3 days of lesson ending at 6pm!
ohh myy guanyinma!
and wat's worse is...
LOUISAYONG, my tutor again!
ohh well.
ranting wont change anything right?
tada =))

*I didn’t complain to say nothing
I tried to act like I didn’t see it
Cause deep down I knew I didn’t want to believe it

`the wall that supports me.

ohh well.
that's simply nothing to do
besides studying for BTT =((.

TWITsis's not coming home tonight.
staying over somewhere to get her project done.
which means.
no squeaking voices plus the whole room to myself tonight
aint that great?

TWITsis and *net friend giving me headache man.
net friend always uses TWITsis msn to talk to me.
and i always thought it was that TWIT.
which means?
i got to be mindful of what i type.
(*net friend is twitsis's friend fyi)

chocolate day tml.
hope things goes well.
no burning of kitchen or human beings and sorts.

ohh, i'm so hungry right now.
hungry..
boring..
and the only dependable tvvv doesnt work too.
cause none of the programmes is interesting.
awww.
booo..
tada. =))

*everything will fade away someday, aint it?
everyone will drift apart someday, aint it?
yes, of course.

`would conversations last?

had a random talk with twitsis while walking.
as we saw a couple who are in their old age.
walking hand in hand.
having tonnes of things to talk about.
then i ask twitsis.
me: "when you and your other half grow older, is there still something to talk about?"
twitsis: "of course. could talk about what's happening daily"
me: "but what if both of you cant walk anymore, just sit at home staring at each other. there's still something to talk about?"
twitsis: "of course. IF THERE NOTHING MORE TO SAY, IT MEANS THE LOVE HAVE ENDED."
me: "....."

fine.
she won the arguement.
but is this true?
i dont know.
twitsis always have digusting view about love.
which sends me goosebump everytime.
i remembered she told someone.
"LOVE WILL SEE THROUGH EVERYTHING"
and i was laughing like hell then.
haaas.

ohh well.
this is just a random post.
just wana to write down what i've learnt from twitsis.
at least i know i've learnt something from her =)).
tada =))

WAR

yeah, WAR.
with the-2nd-most-disgusting-creature-on-earth, a lizard.
yes peeps, LIZARDSS!
sending chills down my spines man, yuckss!
that creature mess up my room!
(or rather we mess it up ourselves!)
we even shift our bed in order to deal with that - creature.

everything was shift to track IT down (omgg)of course we cant fight this war without a weapon =))
therefore, presents to you...

and we're tracking..
messing things...
shifting beds...
laughing...
shouting...
screaming at top voices (most screaming done by me, omg!)...
waiting...
and finally, IT'S out!
and i screaamm like hell man.
and dad came in, took the vaccumm..
suck it in.
and there it goes!
byeee lizard.

what a day with that 2nd-most-disgusting-creature-on-earth.
the 1st-disgusting-creature-on-earth is a roach
and it was indeed a 'great' april fool, isnt it?

*thinking...
thinking real hard...
should i be open and forget all about it and tell them?

still, smile.
when you know everything' s gone.
because it happened.

UPDATES:
POLLYs-POCKET new collections
link at the side.

`it is said to be human best friend, a doggy.

though i dont own any pet as my best friend.
i do have many in real life.
one today, i just discover
though we seldom meet up.
seldom talk to each other (neither in msn)
only a couple of times, by chance
we met in school.
though we were from the same sec sch.
but we end up in different class in sec 3.
and a surprise sms i received from him today.

"Hello. Hope you're doing alright.
Have a gd rest.Nytes
-shazali"

yeah, you could say,
"ohh come'on. just a silly sms"
but nahh.
every small little things or actions in my life counts.
people, should start appreciating small things in life =))

read someone's blog.
she wrote "everything's the same but somethings changes"
yeah, i do agree and know what she's refering to.
but i just wana say,
"the ever constant change is always change"
(read it word by word to get it LOL! =)))
get it?

anyway,
HAPPY APRIL FOOL peeps =))
tada.

*I don't believe, that it could be
You speaking your mind and, saying the real thing
My feet have broke free, and I am leaving
I'm not gonna stand here, feeling lonely but
I don't regret it, and I won't think this
Was just a waste of time
But don't just leave me hanging on...
(the little things)